The nakedness of the city was probably the most fantastic part of it. The big empty buildings holding onto whatever quiet dignity they have left as the environment starts to reclaim its original birthplace. In other corners of the city buildings were crumbling down in a solemn fashion that the extreme quiet only can bring about. The remains of the life that once lived and existed in a city slowly receeding into the past. A naked city still full of life but slowly dying every second. The post-apocalyptic life came calling much sooner except it forgot the apocalypse and just became post-infastructure in a sense. Just like the great marvels of the old world having arrived much sooner than anyone ever expected. Each step is a moment where the whiff of the decaying structures makes your head spin as your body tries to make sense with if it had ever existed in that place before.
Oddly enough, I found myself walking into one of these collapsing giants of yesteryear that still had power running through it. It was strange to find a place so lit in the forgotten corner of this city. As night crept on and I stumbled amongst the rubble I found myself staring through a hole in the roof of a pavillion off of one of the floors. I watched as the water sprinkled down amongst the holes in the fabric and mingle with the bare lightbulbs still hanging, flickering from time to time. That incandescent color now lost in today’s world mixing with the sprinkle of rain cause a quiet longing for a past or some fleeting feeling of understand and belonging to this one moment in time.
I walked out to the pavillion and looked around. I felt the rain start to soak my hood but did not get wet. As I stared across the ruins, I could see a few miles away the lights of the city. In the in-between rand lights from those hanging on or from squatters settling in spread out across the blank and empty darkness. Away in the city people were still living but were they thriving? As merely a tourist I could only stare out and contemplate this fall from grace and the reclaiming of the wild by the wild. Down below I could hear the cars arriving for the show and the dj’s rolling their equipment in to the rooms we would fill with electronic beats, wild lights and crazed dancers. A new jazz, so to speak, making you wonder if Fitzgerald would be partaking if he were born in this time for like the 20’s a new dawn was upon the world but instead of ubridled optimism, this was an escape from the mingling attitudes of existing.
The loudness and life of tonight in the midst of an aging building and dying streets; a perfect metaphor for the places that our generation could be at if states were changed but a tad. The difference being this time we are aware of the possibilities that lay before us so we partake of this excess as a way to say, “for another day.” The question that would not be asked nor answered being if there would be our fall from grace or would we weather the storms in our own spirited and undefeated way. So I stared back out and smiled while I pondered these thoughts with my cigarette glinting in the darkness for anyone who looked up, almost like a beacon for all those who wanted to and would come.